idk

so yesterday was weird..  everything seemed fine all day.  I had my manager interview and it obviousy went well.  I knew it would.  I can not wait to hurry and be a manager just so I will have a little extra cash to move out and benefits!
Hung out with rosey and I wanted to see dustin for a bit beause i picked him up something since it was his bday... it's nothing big just ear plugs lol. 
well long story short we talked in text messages and i think he took my text wrong.. im kinda annoyed because i want to clear things up on what i really meant..  idk man..  im starting to think i am way more happier alone.  i just dont care.  i want a b/f but then i do not.  and i wasnt trying to date him, but hang out and if it happened then it did but i feel like he thinks i like him more then i actually do. but i have a tendency to seem that way.

but i got offended a little that he doesn't seem to want anything serious though his actions speak otherwise.. but then i had to tell myself off lol

i just did the same damn thing to a nice guy like the beginning of sept.  and it fucked with him and i couldn't figure out why he was soo upset with me.. now i know. because i have been hanging out with someone who is my twin with relationships.. i dunno if its a good thing or a bad thing...

but anyways i have a lot of issues that need fixed before i go dating.. im serious its ridiculous because even with this guy i would be super happy and the next minute im thinking wtf i dont even wanna b/f.  i am just confused with myself.

i have no iea what i want anymore!


i met gary, jerri's uncle.  i wish i could have talked to him more, he's very interesting and smart.. too bad we have such an age difference.. if i could only meet someone like him....

oh well..

i really would like to find a guy who is going to college or has gone and maybe interested in the same things.  i want someone open minded for sure.  I can not stand close minded people, but there are more of them then open. 

mamaw is slowly getting better but still acts a bit odd.. idk  whats going on.
my family is driving me nuts with it tho.