Thursday, September 30, 2010

It's me

So I use to write a lot on myspace blogs but nobody goes to myspace these days, I tried livejournal but it pretty much sucks!  If you are interested in my old stuff you can check out what the hackers didn't get @ http://trish-e87.livejournal.com/  or whats left of www.myspace.com/trish_e87

Anyway lets talk about today:

Today started out lame, had to work on things at the library but luckily I have cool groupies :) to work with on our presentation.  Later today I hung out with a really nice lad whose name is Thomas.  He took me to dinner and a movie.  very nice guy even held the door open for me.  But I know myself.. I wont be interested in a relationship, not for a very long time.  I just am not into any guy at all.. no matter how nice, cute, funny, anything.. just completely not interested in dating any more.  I know it's because I just came out of almost a 2 year relationship.  My heart was broken, well it still is.  I have excepted it though and I have moved on.  I just don't understand and I supose that is the hardest part.  How does someone leave me for a lady who fits the hill billy woman stereotype is the question but that's just me.. well and all his friends and family but anyway lol ha it is funny!  I realize that there are issues that apparently I should be glad to not be dealing with any longer.
Since this relationships end, I have become extremely picky and I have very high standards.  I am not settling, I am decided.  I will not fall for just anyone or put up with bull shit again.  I am attractive, I work hard, and I am f'ing going to school making my life better.  If a boy is too ignorant to see what he has then fuck him!  I deserve someone who is going to treat me with respect and do nice things for me.  I know that sounds conceited but bitches I have reason to be :P 
I have been doing great though!  I have never been so happy while being alone.  I feel like I am getting myself back and I love hanging out and meeting new people.  It is awesome to have options and just knowing that I have nobody at all to answer to.  I have liked going on dates and just getting to know people.  Why rush?  I don't wanna get into another mess.  Next time this person has to be special to me.  I am not settling, nope! Not happening.
I have been feeling pretty pimp about myself and it is probably swelling my head I am sure but it's about time for me to get some confidence :D
Tomorrow is the worse day of the week always now.. I always work all morning and then go to class until 9pm.. it's a long long day!  But it is starting to get easier now that I am getting down the schedule.  I am excited for Saturday because I hate that class and it is the last day, also I am going 4 wheeler riding with Thomas and my old best buddy Patsy and her man!  I am very excited! 
ah, it is nice to finally enjoy life.  I can honestly say that I am content.
well Imma go get me some 9 x 3 !!  my buddies know what that code means :)

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