So I use to write a lot on myspace blogs but nobody goes to myspace these days, I tried livejournal but it pretty much sucks! If you are interested in my old stuff you can check out what the hackers didn't get @ http://trish-e87.livejournal.com/ or whats left of www.myspace.com/trish_e87
Anyway lets talk about today:
Today started out lame, had to work on things at the library but luckily I have cool groupies :) to work with on our presentation. Later today I hung out with a really nice lad whose name is Thomas. He took me to dinner and a movie. very nice guy even held the door open for me. But I know myself.. I wont be interested in a relationship, not for a very long time. I just am not into any guy at all.. no matter how nice, cute, funny, anything.. just completely not interested in dating any more. I know it's because I just came out of almost a 2 year relationship. My heart was broken, well it still is. I have excepted it though and I have moved on. I just don't understand and I supose that is the hardest part. How does someone leave me for a lady who fits the hill billy woman stereotype is the question but that's just me.. well and all his friends and family but anyway lol ha it is funny! I realize that there are issues that apparently I should be glad to not be dealing with any longer.
Since this relationships end, I have become extremely picky and I have very high standards. I am not settling, I am decided. I will not fall for just anyone or put up with bull shit again. I am attractive, I work hard, and I am f'ing going to school making my life better. If a boy is too ignorant to see what he has then fuck him! I deserve someone who is going to treat me with respect and do nice things for me. I know that sounds conceited but bitches I have reason to be :P
I have been doing great though! I have never been so happy while being alone. I feel like I am getting myself back and I love hanging out and meeting new people. It is awesome to have options and just knowing that I have nobody at all to answer to. I have liked going on dates and just getting to know people. Why rush? I don't wanna get into another mess. Next time this person has to be special to me. I am not settling, nope! Not happening.
I have been feeling pretty pimp about myself and it is probably swelling my head I am sure but it's about time for me to get some confidence :D
Tomorrow is the worse day of the week always now.. I always work all morning and then go to class until 9pm.. it's a long long day! But it is starting to get easier now that I am getting down the schedule. I am excited for Saturday because I hate that class and it is the last day, also I am going 4 wheeler riding with Thomas and my old best buddy Patsy and her man! I am very excited!
ah, it is nice to finally enjoy life. I can honestly say that I am content.
well Imma go get me some 9 x 3 !! my buddies know what that code means :)
